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Theater of the Absurd
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feel the death spasms of a tiny bird in ur hand
like the flacid cock of a perverted old man
acid burned tongue, an evaporating word
we were just kids, too young to understand
welcome to the theater of the absurd
all I've ever wanted was to be consumed
all I've ever known was that I am doomed
I felt love briefly, some say I was groomed
I dreamed of u every single nite
I was locked in that room
mothers cry & then mothers die
we blame them for birthing such swine
but the burden is mine
it's on me this time,
for crying, crying
soiled bed, crumpled sink
busted head, wounds that stink
I'm just glad I'm not alone
broken bread, a severed link
filled with dread every time I think
the true depths of us are still unknown
welcome to the theater of the absurd
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Death of an Honest Injun
02:37
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I get culture shock everytime I walk
down gentrification way
doors are all locked & the intersections blocked
wen the Injuns come out to play
see the color drain from us all
wen its not ur pain
u work on ur aim, I'm against the wall
as u pick my brain
blessed by mortality
dont mess w my unreality
dont resent me for needing relief
just write me out of your history
there's ppl that look like me
in those books u read
but they don't walk these streets
paper cuts me bloody
but pages dont bleed
I'm needy for ur love, babe
ur greedy for control, babe
I'm bleeding on ur rug, babe
death of an Honest injun
oldest story ever told
I'm grieving with my drugs, babe
u make me doubt my soul, babe
I saw u give all those cops hugs, babe
death of an honest injun
oldest story ever told
I'll burn every bridge built by white men
swim across the river
& try to make it home again
death of an honest injun
oldest story ever told
cash in my scalp cowboy
just like them days of old
death of an honest injun
heart is tatters, land is sold
come on & take a chance on love
nothing matters but the lives we hold
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if ignorance is bliss then public school's heaven
conditions are unliveable but firewater's helping me to adapt
holding my moms hand outside of 7-11
I swore if she let me go I'd never come back
thought I wouldn't come back but I did
hours, days, months, years i waited
I wanted to be somebody's kid
but I'm just something someone created
could u gather me up, I'm scattering
sick from the freedom of never mattering
trying to kick the habit of looking into mirrors endlessly shattering
tell me, how soon will beauty feel impossible..?
I cry & cry & cry
& no one comes but the wolves
raised on poison air & by pedophile machines
& I still have the nerve to hold onto my dreams
I mine my memory for relief
but there is only a harsh glow
life is fast but I always make time for grief
damn near lost everyone I know
but wut if luv was real?
but what if luv was real?
but what if love was real
I'd say goodbye if I thought that one of us might die
but the battles we've fought have taught us to laugh in the face of death
so hysterical even a dead man walking would bat an eye
we break the goddamn cycle with every hard won breath
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my pillow is a mound of soil
my bed is 5 pounds of leaves
I'm getting sick from blood & oil
there is no getting clean
wut could've been
is wut always was
why don't u let me in
& lemme rub it on my cuts
pills n booze & wicked ways
I can't tell u how to pass the days
they're killing the seasons so we worship the clock
u sit around & act amazed
but I can no longer watch
cause I've got portals to unlock
no one is gonna care
unless u make them
but u feel unknowable
& so u forsake them
life gets so heavy
& u dont want to break them
but eating shit is all you've ever known
just hop up on the hood of this truck
baby I'm no good, but I know u don't give a fuck
no stars in the city
but if there was im sure they'd wish us good luck
there's never been anyone under these satellites quite like us
pills n booze & wicked ways
I can't tell u how to pass the days
they're killing the seasons so we worship the clock
I can no longer count the reasons
why we no longer talk
cause it's about time that I take off
if u want freedom
then u must create it
but dont blame me
for being jaded
chaos arranged me
then u shamed me for being naked
but all I ever wanted was a home
hold my head in ur lap
be the family I've needed all along
our ancestors warned us of this trap
& they weren't wrong
let the earth shatter, it doesn't matter
I'll take u somewhere where we can be unknown
we'll float thru space like a regal tatter
but all I ever wanted was a home
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TJ Felix
just a homesick Qelmucw on stolen land
live band =
Phoenix on bass
Felonious Parker on drums
Matt on guitar /sax
(FKA industrial priest overcoats)
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