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Junk Babies Prayer
01:10
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i'll stare at myself in the mirror
until i burn a hole straight thru my fucking head
drug addicted i can see
my future clearly
im just another fiend
dropped dead in the street
trauma
trauma
traumatized
im a harm reduction parasite
stuck in this spiral for the rest of my life
my best friend took those drugs & died
all these crooked thugs are just trauma, trauma, traumatized
im on the street but i can survive
u cant domesticate a street kids pride
maybe u can hide behind a lie
but i cant hide behind these eyes
trauma
trauma
traumatized
im a harm reduction parasite
stuck in this spiral for the rest of my life
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3. |
Gentrify my Heart
00:57
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my teeth are havin a panic attack
mutilated by the acid i barfed up
i keep my mouth shut
put on my lil act
but i dont think i could ever be enough
u are the condo
i am the land
& im up for lease
pls take my hand
& gentrifytrrhthrhtbcgb
ur like a stepmom simulator
& im ur honey baby, useless eater
mouth machine
selfish masturbator
the rest is all theatre
we're dramatic creatures
u are the condo
i am the land
& im up for lease
pls take my hand
& gentrify my heart
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White Sage Bubblegum
01:21
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do u ever wonder
wut the Land knows?
when the keeper is gone
that's where the knowledge goes
learned & sturdy
strike a temporary pose
let me rot
& see wut grows
im chewing
im chewing White Sage Bubblegum
i cut thru the city
just like Seklép (Coyote)
u were never meant to see me
winding thru these back streets
im chewing
im chewing White Sage Bubblegum
& im at the store buying sacred cigarettes
maybe im like my ancestors when they were young
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Cultural Animorphs
01:24
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im rich in surplus despair
entertaining angels unaware
itch my lil wrists til my wires lay bare
recalibrate my mind,
take me back to nowhere
loving the system
& fighting ur body
become a wallflower to trap ur shadow
loving the system
& hiding ur body
nvr knowing that we are:
1. SACRED
2. CULTURAL ANIMORPHS
it's like im fighting a feeling
waged war inside
but i will make my mind up
in time
ive adopted the mentality
of the immortal suicide brain
that has laid waste to all those before me
im almost non-existent
& im feeling no pain
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6. |
Put me Down
02:24
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I awoke with a scream
that's what I did
had a ptsd dream
that made me feel like a kid
hurt me, desert me
please, anything at all
my spirits leaving
creeped out by the love withdrawl
creatures dance
in & out of my exposed mind
spirit laughing as my mortal coil unwinds
I almost learned to survive
but
I trusted u
to put me down easy
I trusted u
to put me down
beauty is dead
true love is impossible
I awoke with a sigh
went up in smoke & choked
oh u know I wanna rot
like the leftovers in ur compost
id give up the ghost
be a hunted animal for u
melt me like rancid butter on burnt toast
is it possible to love at full capacity
while fearing death so much u can barely move or even breathe
is it possible for u to even love me?
ur so busy obeying time & living comfortably
why does it take a deathbed to dream?
why does it take a deathbed to dream?
why does it take a deathbed to dream?
why does it take a deathbed to dream?
why does it take a deathbed to dream?
why does it take a deathbed to dream?
i
trusted
u
to
put
me
down
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7. |
Polite Genocide
01:36
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HISTORY REPEATING
WAR DRUMS KEEP BEATING
ONLY THE RICH ARE EATING
& THE EARTH
THE EARTH IS BLEEDING
if law is hate
then crime is love
if death is fate
then isnt living enough?
how could u need any more..?
youd slaughter us all but ur just too boring
everything's a goddamned prison
there is no contact w/o collision
fingers raw like bleeding knives
the law's unjust & we're born leading criminal lives
like a fucked up landfill telescope
like a vandalized mosaic
like a broken meth pipe
we refract lite
werefract light
& some of us will get burned
theyre committing a polite genocide
& somehow me & u still havent died
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Antiseptic Smell
01:05
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im ru nning for it
gettin straight outta hell
the drugs on the table
have an antiseptic smell
ive suffered a lifetime
of trial & error
brighter smiles
the stocked aisles
the terror, the terror, the terror
wuts happening? wuts new?
daily death toll
& it's all because of u
tried to take a ride
but my mind's engaged
it remembers that for so long it was starved & it was caged
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I Listen (For Giants)
01:12
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gettin choked out
by these four walls
what's a safe house
if the sky falls?
my shell is mere compost
i get scraped on scrap heaps
my hell is my own ghost
i can feel it breathing
let down my guard like a tired machine
show you my scars from the trampoline
your families nice & your house is clean
i just keep my head down
& hope to dream
i sleep in the forest
i sleep by the river
i walk thru the silence
& i listen for giants
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I see a sunbeam
bouncing off the fur
of a fly
distant highway screams
but this moment
is mine
Creator
I pray to u
for clarity
& good health
i'll see u later
wen we break thru
the disparity
of class & wealth
amongst the spirits
I crawl along on my belly
not like a snake
but like water does
listen to the stories that theyre telling
im so grateful for this chance
to see the forest in the trees
before they become diseased
before they become cities
& im brought back up to my knees
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never underestimate an educated fool
they'll bury u in jail if they don't bury u in school
& no, there's no radical opportunist that i trust
they'll bury u in shit if they don't leave u in their dust
there's no escape
from the pale masses
messy stinky mess
from pampered white asses
cause nothing compares to you
ur the last great shining white hope
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attic full of insects
basement full of birds
i'd luv to fill u in
but i dont have the words
everything is periphery
my life is a blur
chaos reigns when i try to move
i forget all i've learned
head in the clouds
& i'm outta my depth
so i stand on my head
& take a breath
i take a breath
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men so weathered by tourist air
it's hard to believe they had ever cried for milk
easy to deceive, it's hard to care
prepare for the elements of this city we've built
crawling from my deathbed
reaching for the medicine
im hauling a life's worth of scraps
running on adrenaline
they want to be alone
they wont step foot on a crowded train
they ran away from home
& wont be back again
who are all these ppl living w me on the grind
the world is urs & wuts urs is mine
i made my bed on a thin blue line
& paid my rent w a vagrancy fine
kill the cop:
in ur head
in ur heart
lying in ur bed
anybody that plays the part
ive been lost since they closed ur casket
& ur headstone has been the only sick embrace
the universe might put u in ur place if u know how to ask it
or it might just blow up in ur face
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14. |
Voices
03:16
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take time to look into our eyes
dont violate our rights
it's ur children's future u fight
.. how can that be reconciled?
im not a guinea pig
im not a cash cow
my life matters & i'll survive somehow
they wanna shrink my cage until i implode
make me think it's all ive ever known
FOSTER SACRED RAGE
IN SURVIVAL MODE
.. do u hear the voices on the frontline
saying
I DONT WANNA DIE
??
do u?
closet full of skeletons
& u cant even throw me a bone
u reap the benefits from our stolen land
& have destroyed my fucking home
youve justified my inherent distrust
by investing in my steady decline
there's no going back to wut never was
.. so who's going to tow the line?
do u hear the voices on the frontlines
saying
I DONT WANNA DIE
??
saying
THANK U MOM
FOR MAKING ME
FOR RAISING ME TO BE
A DEADLY FUCKING WEAPON
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TJ Felix
just a homesick Qelmucw on stolen land
live band =
Phoenix on bass
Felonious Parker on drums
Matt on guitar /sax
(FKA industrial priest overcoats)
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