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there are no safe spaces
only the haves & the have nots
culture assassins w baby faces
are gentrifying the block
ur secretly rich & lookin to be oppressed
life's a fuckin bitch but ur life is blessed
ask me for consent but it's my soul that u molest
u found a way to get ur way, just another fukin pest
I tread these hellholes nervous & gently
like im repairing a wet broken cigarette
it's gunna take more than a bad word to upset me
lighten up kid, you've barely lived yet
if ur privileged enough to believe
that safety is real
& that natural chaos can be mitigated
then you'll never see the true beauty that the universe conceals
from ur self absorbed brain
u don't want accountability,
u wanna be the center of a cult of personality
I won't wrack my brain learning ur script
while all my friends & family are drowning in shit
while u found a way to thrive in the apocalypse
if ur brown or black
they'll stab ur back
if u don't clean up ur act
& sell out to the social contract
w impunity they attack
armed w mutated facts
so much safer to stick w the pack
& sell out to the social contract
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deeply horrifying to recollect
sometimes I forget im caught in a web with u
in a calm moment, hunted by regret
spider creeps, lover sleeps, & there's nothing left to do
so much light pollution
we can no longer read the stars
there's no more revolution
just talking shit in electric cars
I need a lady who will take me shopping
for a new switch blade
my last one got all bloody
& I dropped it in a sewer grate
I need a lady who'll splash gleefully
in the blood of colonizers w me
& help me pitch a tent in the ruins of this city
so much light pollution
we can no longer read the stars
there's no more evolution
just talkin shit in electric cars
but love me tender
on a neverending bender
& it almost feels safe here
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DOMESTICATED JUNKIE
01:46
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oh, I'd love to feel wanted
I'd love to be desired
so casually haunted
so desperately inspired
I can't be ur unrequited love
I'm much too desperate to be held
it's been over a year
& I still remember how ur unwashed hair smelled
I wish u could love wut u don't understand
but everything's a power struggle & u got the upper hand
u stopped the car & fucked me on crown land
no, no love ever goes as planned
I can't be ur unrequited love
I'm much too desperate to be held
it's been over a year
& I still remember how ur unwashed hair smelled
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LEARNING TO LIVE ALONE
01:02
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u fill me up.but im leaky
tried to catch the bugs in my heart but theyre sneaky
tried to creep away but the floorboards are creaky
ill just pretend to sleep all day
i cant stand the way u treat me
if i spend too much time alone
everything seems to become haunted
the lights are on but nobody's home
im learning to live alone
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VOID (INBETWEEN MY EARS)
01:44
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i come from a long, strong bloodline
of sad drunks
we need to be willing to risk our lives, or at least our well being for each other.. until that happens we will continue to rely on colonial government, white washed justice & half hearted "community" iniatives to merely keep existing as bottomfeeders..
the FUCKING END TIMES are here
let's go commit some crimes my dear
my soul is sick & the fog won't clear
tell them all I tried, I tried
not to slip on my tears
I felt infinite but died, I died
I fell into a void in between my ears
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TAKE BACK THE BLOCK
01:02
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we must humble the police
feed them to the starving earth
off w their heads & watch them bleed
cops for fertilizer & we're the seeds
no brain can ever get clean
brainwashing is for the weak
I don't care if u were part of my "community"
There's no safety
so many excuses
but only ur actions speak
we'll take back the block
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GOODBYE DAIZEY BURNER
03:49
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ME & U
02:04
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ME & U (SICK FANTASY)
02:48
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been here everyday looking for u
& u just show up out of nowhere
& light up this old barroom
wuts a hopeless creep to do
but stand & stare
while being passed right thru?
tiny lightening bolts
struck the grimy ground by my head
I had passed out in the street
didn't wanna go back to that empty bed
they prayed for rain,
now I've got soaking feet
something about ur smile makes me insane
something about ur glare makes me complete
can u make the sky fall before im dead?
me & u are nothin but a sick fantasy
ween me off the truth
pretty lady
blood memory can't help me now
I've been here all along somehow..
sick fantasy
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INFEKKKTR
04:40
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I let my drunken piss sit in the toilet all nite
& now the whole place smells like dads death bed
my little kid fists
managed to lose every fight
but now that ur so frail
they just go clear thru ur fukin head
why would we afford diapers
if they're just gonna get full of shit (?)
it's a real nest of vipers
trying to feel anything
(anything)
their ravaged parts can't protect me
my savage heart lay dissected before them
I got a raw deal at the start
& their here to correct me
spare child, spoiled rod,
eyes are wild, seeing god
& he's here to infect me
I know every knook & cranny
& every crooked nanny
of this system
in this fukin wasteland
I'll never be good enough to love
I'll never be bad enough to hate
but I'll show u wut I'm made of
ur long dead, but I still made u a plate
I'd sure like to know
wut it feels like to be desired
I'd sure like to know
wuts on ur mind
u feel like home
but maybe I'm just tired
tired enough to love
any stranger that treats me kind
hate me, isolate me,
u didn't create me
so I learned to love the pain
rape me, break me,
no one will save me
but I'll slit ur fukin throat if u try it again
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DEAD SUN GAZE
01:46
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pass my days w/smoke
dead sun gaze like an artichoke
shed more skin then a snake in the garden
sprinkle sugar on my flakes
waste the day until it breaks
suck broken yolks right out of the carton
cause i'm starving
flypaper skin hot & sticky in the wind
binning for some digits & the beatcop grinned
i'd sell my worthless soul for a bit of insurance
journey through the night,
burning that chemical endurance
just like my parents
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HEATSCORE
01:02
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heatscore
ur a fukin heatscore
always twitchy & afraid
stop bitching & take this blade
flaccid pacifist
u barely exist
w ur so called movements
pacifying the kids
ur theories are a bore
ur just a fukin heatscore
silence isn't violence
ur endless talking will be our downfall
don't got time for infographics
no time for screaming at a wall
flaccid pacifist
u barely exist
w ur so called movements
pacifying the kids
big ego, small brain
u don't do shit but complain
cant take it anymore
w all these fukin heatscores
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this little lite of mine
it's gonna gonna shine
all nite
i work my self down to the core
until my hands are on fire
but im gunna need so much more than art
to keep me warm during winter
this year
im so tired of staring into the void.alone
u grew up loveless
so now u would do anything for love
the love of the whole goddamned world
but baby, i wanna be ur world
i stare down into myself until my heart is on fire
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I taste like cigarettes n booze
& a life u couldn't choose
cause u were born into wealth
& white mental health
such a cruel mistress & I don't want her
but I'm bound by love & I won't run
I rly am my mother's daughter
I rly am my father's son
my body wants to break
my calloused hands shake
clench my teeth & close my eyes
adorn myself in severed ties
use me for ur sick fun
my bile rises with the sun
broken & brittle, a failed stunt
hide from solace, load the gun
I live relatively free
I'm so sick of being me
I approach the light w stealth
& white mental health
who's that sitting down by the water?
the one u love, do they know wut you've done?
I rly am my mother's daughter
I rly am my fathers son
I looked for an honest one but found none
I took one last look at who I've become
I rly am my mother's daughter
I rly am my father's son
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MORTALITY PLEDGE
02:34
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my scams have been exposed
hallowed ground, I put down ten toes
I can't afford my death trip
anymore
rabid angel tore off my clothes
i've got everything i need
to survive in the streets
some day old bread, a lettuce head
a tray of stolen lunchmeats
can i crash @ your place?
or at least stash my suitcase?
u said my name
but clearly don't recognize my face
look under the hedge
if u see an amulet, grab it
mortality pledge
I see something in the mirror
& i want to stab it
wake up inside a fridge
all wrapped in plastic
mortality pledge
I feel fantastic
wake up on the edge
ease into the static
mortality pledge
it's ok, don't panic
u talked me down from the ledge
but don't make it a habit
mortality pledge
life is scabbing over
mortality pledge
not many people i can trust w/my life
& i guess it's gone to my head
it's hard to believe
the corpse in your arms is me
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2010
04:33
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id sure like my ancestors to have my back
but am I worth it? idk..
part of me just wants the facts
but I don't want to face this world alone
summertime
slow time
no time
I'm fading, but I'm fine
a junkie nod to brush off ghosts
a deal w god to hush the coast
but I know one moment of silence
is too good to be true
so much time to waste here
reading magazines
so I went to the church
they fed me rice & beans
news of ur death
was blaring from cracked tv screens
they insisted that I pray
so I'm praying to ur memory
night time
is the right time
& so I'm crying
memories fading, but I'm fine
give my regards to so & so
someone I used to know
but I know one moment of silence
is just not enough for u
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SWEETPEA (SO LOVED)
03:21
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"u know ur lite will shine if u live on"
sometimes I'm manic enough to believe
asked for relief & I was gifted a song
I am the the totality of all who I grieve
we went to an overgrown plot
(in a cemetery on the way outta town)
I wanted to introduce u to my mom
(she watches over me & I want to make her proud)
sweetpea,
are u sleepy?
i miss my family
could u hold me pls?
pathetic ghosts dog our every move
but we only talk to spirits
who have nothing to prove
u drink fine spirits while dancing in the nude
funny how so many hearts break for u
sweetpea,
are u sleepy?
i miss my family
could u hold me pls?
don't give a care
we could go anywhere
we'll fight n fuck, we'll rip n tear
maybe later we'll see u there..?
world crumbled around us
ashes to ashes dust to dust
long nite & the morning's been rough
everyone let us down, we'll lift each other up
red dirt, red sky above
earth offers its last life, it's not enough
pass the bottle, let's get drunk
wut will it take for us to know we're so loved?
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went to the gallery
where they hung my art
graverobbers w/a doctors salary
put a price tag on my bleeding heart
& a dying language
was screaming from the gallery wall
I'm huddled in a bathroom stall
waiting for the spirit world to call
& their lord won't forgive
wut a syringe might
I'm feeling godly on a binge high
I might work up the nerve
to leave u tonite
but darling, why don't u just treat me right?
buildings scrape the sky
theyre housing a blight upon humankind
dismantle them & expose the lies
the putrid lairs of the hive mind
sell it back to them, the rotten heights,
the bleak, endless starvation nights
ur dying family they can't look in the eyes
we've gotta game the system cause we never had rights
oh, the things an Injuns gotta do
to pay rent
on stolen land
oh, the things that we must do
to get thru
to u
& to know
you'll still never understand
oh, the things an Injuns gotta do
to not wind up dead
& get blood
on their smooth white hands
lost in the city another foster kid dies
oh, the things we compromise,
lives lost w no goodbyes,
I will no longer cave into ur demands
I'll take everything I can, to survive & pay rent on stolen lands
but darling, why don't u just treat me right?
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TJ Felix
just a homesick Qelmucw on stolen land
live band =
Phoenix on bass
Felonious Parker on drums
Matt on guitar /sax
(FKA industrial priest overcoats)
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