True Love is Impossible (For a Parasite Like Me)

by TJ Felix

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1.
I had nothing to water down my methadose but a warm can of creamsicle flavored vodka soda like a daughter I held her close & overheard a friend pray for a lost part of me float like a carcass, sting like a memory my tears go boing boing no my tears go shimmer, shimmer fortune shines upon us all so go ahead & kiss her tears in my skull go rattle rattle no, my tears never glimmer I'll keep walking down this road until the light starts getting dimmer sitting under this canvas I hear the sky spill love springs eternal, but I might die still my tears are salty & rare I'm ur chalice & u dont care but if I hold ur last water, you'll never get ur fill float like a carcass, sting like a memory my tears go boing boing no my tears go shimmer, shimmer fortune shines upon us all so go ahead & kiss her tears in my skull go rattle rattle no, my tears never glimmer I'll keep walking down this tunnel & the light just keeps getting dimmer im a splinter in ur soul a moldy morsel in ur begging bowl stomachs will turn, heads will roll if I dont find my own life to hold
2.
without a deathwish would we have ever met? shallow unmarked grave we lay in an unmade bed stop kicking me in the teeth wen all I need is a kiss on the forehead stop kicking me in the teeth cant u see I'm already dead? but loving u was an honorable death u take the edge off mortality youve gifted me w the longest last breath but pls dont look forward to me ill always be here in some form caught in a captured room cause baby, I got no fear but you've got ur impending doom
3.
look at all that's grown from the rot I let u hurt me cause it's all you've got // (wounds open up from wars fought in my youth I push my finger into the bruise) bodies keep piling higher n higher but I just keep smiling cause I'm tired my back is turned toward the land but I can feel the fire with cigarettes i burn my hand, I turn away from the empire no one owns anything but their first & last breath I can hear my angel sing I no longer fear the sweet release of death
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Total Love 05:00
why won't u hate me? can't u see how desperately I want to let go? there's such a beautiful blade in my hand dont tell me there's something worth waiting for Theres simply no time left here I'm not waiting on u anymore there's simply no space for mirrors punch the clock, kick down the door I was broken as a kid but never had a crutch do u ever think about wut u did? chances are I've never meant that much ur ghostly hand can dismantle me w a touch sunny day go away I just wanna blow out my brains sunny day bloody day endlessly circling a clogged drain let me go dont grab at my soul I need total love to regain control to swallow me whole wen i fukin die throw my ashes at the sun we dont need these bodies where we come from I'll follow u down every secret path youve carved this is for u, for all the nites u watched me starve let me go dont grab at my soul I need total love to regain control to swallow me whole

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released August 18, 2022

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just a homesick Qelmucw on stolen land

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Phoenix on bass
Felonious Parker on drums
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