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GUIDING STAR REDUX
04:56
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I gotta suppress
memories of all the horrors I've seen
cause who'd deal w this mess
if I got clean..?
I'm a junkie w no $$$
I'm a plague upon this city
wanting to die
means we're amazingly alive
u said "let's get high"
& pitched in ur last five
it'll be alright
i have enough to get me thru the nite
I'm full of fear
from the last time I saw clearly
but since I forgot ur eyes
I can laugh sincerely
who knows
if we'll ever see each other again
let's party tonite
if we're still alive by then
like a guiding star
I know ur already dead
like a guiding star
I know ur already dead
like a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already deadlike a guiding star
I know ur already dead
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GO AHEAD & DROP THE BOMB
03:17
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I make myself repulsive
so u won't miss me wen I'm gone
I gave in to my baser impulses
wuts this fucked up trip that I'm on..?
my heart goes out to the poor sucker
who's gotta get rid of any & all traces
of me
who's gotta clear out
my hellhole room
& attempt to find my family
********************
but love me today
do drugs w me tonite
they could drop the bomb tomorrow
& baby, that's alright
*********************
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DRUNKDIALED MY UNCLE
00:42
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drunkdialed my uncle
he just got annoyed
denial's so much wiser
cause im the bastard kid of the void
im not so nervous
w my neck in a noose
im captain courageous
w nothing left to lose
im just a skeleton beneath this skin
living a death i didnt choose
picking up glass at a nearby pre-school
& change for some sugary bubblegum ice cream
ICE CREAM
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I get the overwhelming feeling
that there's ppl laughing
behind my back
everywhere I go
it's ppl that I know
but I hear the endless chatter
of ppl trying to matter
like cockroaches they scatter
wen someone sheds some light
they hide their heads from sight
two faced shit face
trying to save face
fat cat in a rat race
trying to keep pace
u left a bad taste
w ur liars embrace
like cowards in the clone room
u break bread just to consume
id rather starve
ill be dead soon
u give head
to get ahead
give head
for peace instead
ok i admit it
it isn't easier to be alone
I pray for sanity
so it doesn't hurt so much
to feel unknown
but there's a ruthless dictator
inside my head
that'll make damn sure
I'm not appreciated in my lifetime
maybe not even in death
there is no known known,
no objective truth,
wen our senses are so imperfect
& systematically wasted youth
(is this all i have to pass on..?)
just more self indulgent shit..
(youll be happy wen I'm gone)
no more insufferable hypocrite
two faced shit face
trying to save face
fat cat in a rat race
trying to keep pace
u left a bad taste
w ur liars embrace
cowards in the clone room
egos glisten
in the light
of the full moon
& im hiding
in my room
u give head to get ahead
give
head
for
peace
instead
GIVE
HEAD
4
PEACE
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I treat everyone around me like shit
if I don't do everything I can
to stay on top of it
to suppress the villain that I am
going mental
fukin mental in this cage
overcome by this monolithic,
pathetic rage
I tell time with healing wounds
I'm so late to meet my doom
I can tell ur fortune
w just an abandoned bedroom
ur gone
ur gone for good
I can hear u howling in my blood
I can feel u shiver wen ur master calls
curled up on ur lovers tongue
trapped in white windless walls
I've fucked my body up
I've fucked my mind up
respawned beyond the pale yonder
I'd like a chance to rest awhile
I'd like a chance to reconcile
don't let my resentful mind wander
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PAST
03:16
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do u or do u not
wanna see me burn
slow & painfully
while waiting ur turn
the needle kisses
the needle bruises
but the needle won't do the dishes
no matter wut drug she uses
I'm sitting on the edge
& no one seems concerned
im just watching my friends below
I've lost all resemblance
to that kid they used to know
I'm a heavy sleeper
if I sleep
I'm a lazy reaper
if I reap
I'm a tweeker, heat seeker
sad eyed orphan hid in the grass
bleak getting bleaker,
meek becoming meeker
nothing is as golden as the past
*I wear dark glasses cause
someone keeps casting crying spells on me
& I don't want anyone to see
how puffy my eyes are under this mask
I wear dark glasses
cause im an asshole
& the light is so bright
nope,
nothing is golden like the past*
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7. |
WASTED YOUTH
00:55
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id suck a goddamned cops dick right off
i'll fuck the system til i get bored
idc idc idc idc
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BILE RISING
01:47
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after a few decades of being at fault
I've gotten pretty good at apologizing
but production has slowed down to a halt
open my mouth & I can feel the bile rising
so much depends upon good fortune
crops fail, hammer hits nail
so many hide behind distortion
negotiations fail, the future is pale
I hang around old haunts
not like a ghost, but a residue
a ghost is someone trapped
by wut they want
I'm just waiting to be validated by u
ur so goddamned pathetic
i could kiss u
if only u knew
how much I'm goin to miss u
wen the world collapses in on us
... i can feel
the bile rising
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9. |
FLEETING RELEVANCE BLUES
04:36
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once upon a time
I knew all the hottest goss
I felt like a god
I felt like a boss
& if god is cred
I took my turn upon the cross
punk is dead
the color came out in the wash
nothing sadder
then forgetting how to have fun
blood splatter
forgot to set my phaser to stun
I just wanted to matter to someone
maintaining an illusion
in pursuit of a career
in a vacuum, in a bedroom
the apocalypse is here
it's exploitation,
not a revolution
better left a dream
or a memory
I'm insecure
& not so pure
at heart
hunger & fear
can I belong here
as long as I make art..?
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wen u get there
if u can still breathe
don’t forget me
not many ppl have met me
u just came out of nowhere
& started to feed
we are the natural world
who gives a fuck about history..?
eating scraps off ppls trays in the food court
picking up butts outside of safeway
walking all the way from lougheed station
to port moody at 3am
cause u heard there was a place that u could stay
there’s a truth that no cop understands
killing time w my bare hands
oh, the things a street kid’s gotta do
to pass the day…
if i can just scrounge enough for a meal
i’ll be ok
or just something to feel
that wont drive me insane
listening to nirvana in ur dead dads truck
while getting high & making out
running naked down the side of the highway
finally escaped the bad mans house
(if i can just scrounge enough for a meal ill be ok)
there’s a truth that no cop understands
killing time w my bare hands
there’s no glory in the long run
there’s no story of who we become
it’s so boring wen we keep score
let’s settle things like we did before // i dont wanna play this game no more
oh, the things a street kids gotta do
to pass the day
i’ll try not to forget u
wen im forgetting wut i have to
can’t promise anything & I cant keep a secret
but im glad i took the portal in my dead dads closet
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TJ Felix
just a homesick Qelmucw on stolen land
live band =
Phoenix on bass
Felonious Parker on drums
Matt on guitar /sax
(FKA industrial priest overcoats)
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